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Friday, January 30, 2009

Letter from God To Women


When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman,

I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not
interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you.... I molded you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his
heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.

You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel.....You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence and my eyes fill when I see the virtues
in your heart.

Your eyes......don' t change them.
Your lips - how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose, so perfect in form.
Your hands so gentle to touch.
I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.
I've held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share
and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support.

You are special because you are an extension of me. Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.
GOD

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Random Snowy Thoughts...



So I had the itching to post on my blog today, with the torrent of thoughts that are consuming my attention. I think they are a result of cabin fever and being without normal human interaction for so long. Even now, I feel a little like this tree; snowbound and rooted into one spot, alone. That sounds just a little dismal and self-pitying but I can't help it. That's how I feel right now.

The truth is, to perpetuate this feeling of isolation, I'm willing to bet that no one will read this blog entry. Not that it matters, just as long as I can get my torrid thoughts out of my head and onto some kind of medium.

I have been feeling a bit depressed lately; with my husband working graveyard, the snow that's kept me in my house for over a week, the seemingly never-ending "debt plan" that pinches our pennies every month, the desire for a baby and not being pregnant each month, my sister moving out of town...I feel somewhat smothered by multiple difficult circumstances. I feel sometimes as if I am being lowered into some dark hole, and am fighting with everything inside of me, scraping the darkness with my fingernails, searching for a place to hold on. I know that all sounds desperate and despondent, but I think that's a pretty good description of depression-not clinical depression, mind you, but circumstantial depression.

Whenever I feel this way I have to stop in my tracks and check myself. I believe there is a reason and a design for everything that happens in our lives and emotions are sometimes the avenue through which God speaks to us. When we feel we're at the end of our ropes, perhaps he's been trying to get our attention by letting us slide there. Instead of focusing on the Source of life and love and happiness and joy, we've been neglecting it and instead turning our eyes inward in a self-pitying, self depracating way that only leads to darkness. God is the "Father of Lights" so where He is there is no darkness. Suffice to say we are not seeking relationship with the Lord as we should be when we are in the dark. I have to clarify this by saying that there are cases where, of course, hormonal and chemical imbalances occur and we may truly be in the light and right relationship with God yet feel we are in darkness.

But that requires the most faith of all...it's when we can't see the light but must trust that it is there where the depth of our belief is tested. At the same time I think there are conditional depressions which stem from a lack of relationship from the Life-Giver, the Creator, our Jesus. How can a plant grow without sunlight or water? If we starve it of these two essential life-giving elements, how can we expect it to stay alive? The same is true with our spiritual selves. We are connected to the vine and in order to flourish and produce much fruit, we have to expose ourselves to the light of the Father and to his living water, the Word. We have to open up our closed, stubborn hearts in order to receive sustenance.

So I guess the lesson for me to take away from this, after seeing the explanation of my melancholy spelled out for me, is to seek the Lord with all my heart, draw near to Him as he draws near to me, turn my face to the Son and not to the darkness of my selfish, self-centered thoughts and receive the life that He has promised me.

Nothing is too big for Him but nothing is too small for Him either. That is what makes our Lord so incredibly beautiful. He is king yet friend, father yet brother, Savior of the world yet interested in our own little tiny lives, as precious children.

Thanks for letting me share this Christmas season to any of you who are reading; and like the tree, snow-burdened or not, let us always point to the true reason for our celebration-JESUS CHRIST.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Psalm 23

Psalm 23 has always been one of my favorite Psalms.

I was lying in bed the other night, meditating on how each line reflects a characteristic of our amazing God and came up with the following.

Psalm 23

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

The Lord leads and guides my life through highs and lows, valleys and mountains; I will never want for any of my needs.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

He gives me rest and sustenance; he quiets my anxieties and troubles with peaceful calm.

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.


He replaces the strength, pieces of my heart and steadfastness the world takes from me: he is the God of restoration and redemption.
He always leads me to the right path even though it might not be one I understand, it’s all in the name of Jesus and his perfect plan for my life.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,


I don’t have to fear anything of this world or punishment as I am made perfect in the Father’s love through Jesus; in His forgiveness of my sins, in the new robes of righteousness He’s given me to walk with Him.

for you are with me;

He always walks beside me and sometimes carries me through the hard times…even to “the ends of the earth.”

your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.


His discipline and wisdom guide me back into the fold when I am tempted to wander. They are as familiar to me as the strong hand of a father, establishing rules for the safety of His children.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.


He puts me at a place of honor at His table and those who hate me look on, choosing not to participate in the glorious feast.

You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.


His Holy Spirit annoints my life, coating it with rich fragrance: inside, outside and fills me up so that His light and love overflows unbridled into the lives of others

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,


When I follow the Lord I know that not everything will go perfectly for me and in fact might be harder than if I didn’t know Him, but I know that the Lord seeks after me to bless me, His child, for as long as I live

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.


Because I am His, I will receive His amazing gift of eternal life, only because of His ultimate sacrifice on the cross to wash away my sins.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Implications of this financial Apocalypse

By Joel C. Rosenberg

"U.S. foes gloat over financial crisis" (Associated Press)

"Iran hails world financial crisis as 'end of capitalism'" (Agence France Presse)

"We are witnessing the collapse of the American Empire." - Hamas leader Ismail Haniyeh

"We are happy that the U.S. economy is in anarchy and the anarchy is reaching Europe. They are seeing the result of their own ugly doings and God is punishing them." - top Iranian cleric

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(Washington, D.C., October 16, 2008)-- The U.S. is experiencing the most serious financial crisis since the Great Depression. Our enemies know it. They smell blood in the water. Consider the latest developments:

* "Wall Street stocks plunged Wednesday in the second biggest single day point loss in history and their worst percentage fall in two decades, ravaged by fears the world's biggest economy is slipping into recession. The Dow Jones Industrial Average slid 733.08 points (7.87 percent) to close at 8,577.91 in the worst one-day point loss since last month's record 777-point decline and the steepest percentage drop since 1987. In an even more brutal decline, the broad-market Standard & Poor's index plunged 90.17 points (9.03 percent) to 907.84." (AFP)

* "We are living through financial history of the tragic kind. As of Friday's close, America's stock market had declined in value by well over 40 per cent compared with its peak a year ago. Already, this ranks as the fifth biggest stock market decline since the 1920s." (U.K. Independent)

* "U.S. stocks [in recent days have] plunged the most since the crash of 1987, hammered by the biggest drop in retail sales in three years and growing doubt that plans to bail out banks will keep the economic slump from deepening….The S&P 500 has tumbled 38 percent in 2008 as losses and writedowns from mortgage-related investments at financial firms worldwide topped $640 billion….The S&P 500 has tumbled 42 percent from its Oct. 9, 2007, record and the Dow has lost 39 percent from its peak the same day." (Bloomberg News)

* "Japan's key stock index plummeted more than 11 percent, South Korean shares shed 9.25 percent, and Hong Kong's Hang Seng Index was down 4.8 percent. Floowing Asia's lead, benchmarks in Britain, Germany and France slipped about 3 percent. Russia's RTS also fell." (AP)

* "U.S. Forces Nine Major Banks To Accept Partial Nationalization" - Washington Post

* "The White House said G8 leaders were expected to meet this year on the worst financial crisis since the 1930s Great Depression. Governments around the world have pledged $3.2 trillion in emergency measures - roughly an equivalent to the economic output of Germany or China - including taking stakes in banks to help them stabilize, rallying world markets on Monday and Tuesday. But optimism quickly gave way to fears that government intervention would not save major economies from recession." (Reuters)

This is not a temporary glitch in the global financial software. The problems are real, deep and systemic. The best explanations and analysis I have seen have come from Steve Forbes, editor-in-chief of Forbes magazine, the nation's foremost business magazine (see Steve's recent columns).

The big question now: What does it all mean and where do we go from here? A few thoughts on the implications of this financial apocalypse:

1. First things first: our national security is inextricably tied to our economic security. Economic weakness is an invitation to radical Islamic terrorists to hit us again. It's also an invitation to other rogue nations to pursue their evil plans while thinking we are unable or unwilling to stop them. The U.S. cannot lead the world in defeating tyrants and terrorists and creating an environment of peace and prosperity if we are collapsing at home. Stabilizing our economy, reforming our financial institutions, punishing and imprisoning those who have criminally undermined our economy, and getting us back on the road to free market growth and entrepreneurial health and vitality must be the top priority of the next Commander-in-Chief.

2. I don't believe one U.S. political party or the other is specifically to blame for our own financial crisis. There is plenty of blame to go around and the problems have been developing for years. That said, it is becoming increasingly clear to me that the U.S. stock markets are tanking especially hard right now in part because investors believe Sen. Barack Obama is going to win on November 4th. As polls for Obama and Congressional Democrats have risen - and Americans have begun to sense that Obama's election as president and expanded control of Congress by Rep. Nancy Pelosi and Sen. Harry Reid and their liberal allies is inevitable - investors' fears have not been calmed. They have been exacerbated. True, investors don't see a complete and convincing economic rescue plan from Sen. McCain. But they see disaster in Obama's plan and the likelihood of full control of the U.S. government by the Democrats. The Obama-Pelosi-Reid prescription, after all, is the worst possible medicine for the economy - $1.3 trillion in new federal spending, dramatic tax increases on small businesses, dramatic tax increases on big businesses, dramatic tax increases on those who create wealth, a major new tax on energy producers, as well as nationalized health care system. We are not simply on the brink of a serious recession; we are on the brink of another Great Depression. How, then, will massive tax increases and massive government spending help us fight our way out of this crisis? Answer: it won't. And Main Street and Wall Street know it. Just ask Joe the Plumber.

3. Are there prophetic implications of this financial crisis? It is hard to be definitive. The U.S. does not show up specifically in any end times Bible prophecies. But this fact alone raises a sobering question: If we are really in what the Bible describes as "the last days" before the return of Jesus Christ, then how is it possible that the United States of America - the wealthiest and most powerful nation on the face of the planet in the history of mankind - does not play a significant, notable role in Biblical end times events?

The honest answer: I don't know for certain. But here's what I wrote in Dead Heat (p. 154): "What Bennett had never really considered carefully until now was the possibility that something else might devastate the American people, rendering them ineffective heading into the last of the last days. A financial downturn on Wall Street. The sudden collapse of the dollar. The beginning of another Great Depression. A series of devastating earthquakes. Or hurricanes. Or other natural disasters, like a tsunami. [Or ] the most cataclysmic terrorist attack of all time - five nuclear warheads. And there might be more to come. None of it was clearly prophesied in the Scriptures. Not that he could find. But perhaps he should have foreseen the neutralization of America by more carefully reading between the lines. If so, what else was he missing? What exactly was coming next?"

4. Finally, let us consider the possibility that the Lord is allowing this economic meltdown in part to shake our confidence in anything but a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Is it possible that God is trying to shake us loose from trusting in our wealth, from trusting in our political leaders, from trusting in our own ingenuity and our own hard work? Is it possible that He is trying to get us to shift our focus from worldly, materialistic things to how much He loves us, and the truth that the only person we can truly trust in life to never leave us or forsake us is Jesus Christ? Is it possible that He is trying to get us to read the Bible more, and the stock tickers less? To pray more, and to worry less? To store up our treasures in heaven, and not concentrate so much on our treasures on earth?

Anyone who is feeling fearful during this turbulent economic times would do well to meditate on the words Jesus told His disciples in Matthew 6:19-33 --

"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also….No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other You cannot serve God and wealth. For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

October 8th, Our Two-Year Anniversary


Tim and I have been married two years today! It's amazing to look back and see how fast the time has gone, yet feel like I've known this man for twenty years.

First and foremost, I have to say that I am married to the most wonderful man in the entire world! I know other women say that about their husbands, but mine is truly the best. :) The most incredible part is that he loves ME. He always says that I only married him because God blinded me, but I believe it's the other way around.

Every day I thank the Lord for bringing him into my life. We met two and half years ago on March 8th at a Wed night Athey Creek Bible Study. My friend Tia introduced us and there was an instant connection we both felt. I wish I could go into both our histories leading up to this point because it is truly an amazing testimony of God's grace, restoration and redemption but I will have to cover that in another post.

I was at a point in my life where I had decided to be single and concentrate on the Lord with my whole heart. That time with Jesus was one of the most special and fruit-bearing chapters in my life. I had surrendered my dream of marriage at the foot of the cross, not expecting to ever get married. It was truly an Abraham and Issac moment because as I raised the knife of surrender, the Lord picked up my dream, dusted it off, healed its wounds from years of mistakes and sin, made it shine like the sun and gave it back to me in the form of my husband, Tim.



So, when I met Tim that night I spent a lot of time in prayer, seeking the Lord's will. I didn't even want to sit anywhere near him at church before I had heard from the Lord. We both felt it like a bolt of lighting but each of us wanted to do the right thing in the sight of God. Even in the midst of waiting on the Lord, though, God was writing the most beautiful love story. The second time we saw each other at church, Tim came up to me and said" I have been thinking about you and praying about you a lot. I know that I want you in my life I just don't know if it will be a friendship or more but I can't stop thinking about you. I just wanted you to know." Wow. I went home and called my mom and told her I met a REAL man. :) Not one that played it cool or played games with my heart, but one that came right out and told me that he wanted me in his life in some way or another. To this day I still value how direct and honest Tim is and how it's strengthened not only the communication in our marrige, but the respect as well.

Anyway, our first date was about a month later and after that the rest is history. I'm not one to believe in "love at first sight" but I can tell you that the feeling of knowing he was the one that everyone was talking to me about for so long, finally came true in the beautiful blue eyes of my sweet Tim. There was no denying it.

After he went with me and my family to Colorado and was able to meet my ENTIRE extended family (which is incredible because I haven't seen some of them for 10 plus years!), he proposed to me the day after we came back after he had spoken to my father. We were married just 5 short months later.

The lesson here for me was that when you let the Lord take control of something in your life, even if there is some fear that things won't turn out exactly as you want them to, you can trust that he will knock your socks off. What he can do in the drivers seat of your life is SO much better than anything you can ever try to make happen yourself or imagine. Take it from someone who knows!

So, today we celebrate two years together and I am looking forward to many more together with this wonderful man: my soul mate, best friend and so much more.

I love you Timmy.